Blake Allen

It has been three weeks since I have posted, but it really feels like an eternity. I am really enjoying my time here. Sometimes, I want to shoot myself because the work is so monotonous and I have crazy 13 hour shifts (This next week I have one day off but work 57 hours). I am learning a great deal about human nature and myself actually. Even when I want to slap a guest over the head and say they are an idiot, I have to force a smile and try to reconciliate the problem. That takes a lot. Some days you plead for an evacuation or a storm so that the ride will be shut down for a while. It is kinda like a recharge of your system when that happens.

I miss everyone. I have good friends here and I REALLY enjoy spending my time with them. However, I miss the people I am close to. The ones who I experienced life with. I could name the people, but you definitely know who you are. It is actually quite interesting. I accidentally erased all my contacts. At first I was really upset, but then, I noticed that the people who texted me were the people I should have in my contacts. A couple of the people I did not have the numbers for so I had to ask certain peeps for the numbers, but still...it says something about who I mean a lot to. It was just an interesting experiement.

Here is a shoutout to Noelle. I have been really confused about what to do with my life. You know, it was CCM all the way. I saw that God had put a finger in my life and just how it all worked out was kinda crazy. However, since being here I have been thinking WHY go to graduate school when Disney kinda likes my musicality and there is SO much opportunity here. I have been for about two weeks torn up inside about everything. I have to tell CCM and the government by June 1 what I am doing... so it has been even more intense. However, I changed my status today and Noelle texted me. She gave me some of the best advice I have heard (of course, she always does):

"I think of me in a mid life crisis...what would I be glad I had done vs had not done? I know as much education would be the best thing I could have done."
"True. So true. And why give up seventeen years for a job? I mean it would be great but I still need to try for my goal."
"Exactly. And you HAVE worked SO hard why say no now? Facing more hard work is scary... [...]It is normal to feel that way!"

For some reason, this is exactly what I needed to hear. It was the way she said it I think. I am just going to have to go forward with faith and hope that I am making the right decision. There will always be time for a job, but there may not always be time for graduate school.